"私の人生は、その終わりの前に二度終わった"

That line is a powerful expression of heartbreak and loss. Essentially, it suggests that the speaker has experienced two monumental events in their life so devastating that it felt like their life ended before their actual death. Think about the times when something so catastrophic happens that you feel part of you dies with it. It's profound, isn't it?

Emily Dickinson penned those words. She had a life that wasn't exactly filled with sunshine and rainbows. In fact, she spent a lot of time secluded in her Amherst home. Many think she wrote this after losing two people she loved deeply. Death and loss were frequent visitors in her life, which is probably why so many of her poems touch on these themes.

To bring it down to earth, imagine Jane, a lively woman in her 30s. She lost her mother to cancer and barely a year later, her best friend in a car accident. These weren't just losses; they were seismic events that shattered her world. Every day after those losses felt like walking through a fog. For Jane, life closed twice before its close—when her mom died and when her friend died. The person she was before these events simply wasn't there anymore.

So how do you harness this idea and make it work for you? Here’s the deal: life will inevitably throw you curveballs. People you love will leave—sometimes through death, sometimes through other kinds of parting. Recognize that it's okay to feel like a part of you has died. Give yourself grace to mourn and to heal. It's all part of being human. But also, remember that these experiences shape who you are. They can make you empathetic, resilient, and profoundly connected to others who’ve felt similar pains.

Now, picture this: Sarah and Mike, a couple living their dream life, working together in their small business. Then one day, Mike falls ill and passes away within months. Sarah is devastated. She shuts down the business, unable to face the daily reminders of their life together. During this dark period, she feels like half of her died with him. But slowly, she finds solace in helping others navigate similar losses. She starts a support group, and through her pain, she creates a community. Sarah's life closed twice, but it also found a new chapter.

So, if you’re grappling with this kind of profound loss, remember that it’s these difficult moments that sculpt the depth of our character. Don’t shy away from the grieving process. Let it change you in the ways it’s meant to. And maybe, just maybe, you’ll find new beginnings you never imagined. It’s a bit like planting a tree in the ashes—a fresh start that carries the memory of what was lost, but still grows toward the sky.